Kyle Weiss
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I feel like I've abandoned you guys, and really, I haven't.
For a quick update, the work I thought I had with my friend Eric doing computer stuff turned into my first "day" with him, he leaves, and gets in a motorcycle accident and was out for weeks with a concussion. He'll be fine, but I felt cursed.
Last Thursday my best friend, Hazumi my beloved chinchilla, died after a bad reaction with the anesthesia she was under for a routine tooth spur trim. I trust my vet when she says at 10 years old, with perhaps an unknown and undiagnosed issue, it's not entirely surprising, but we sure weren't expecting it. It was a wake-up call to my life and how I had been approaching many things.
Sure, I'm torn up, but I'm also feeling pretty good about what lies aghead. I'm not sure how. I'm not sure why. Change isn't my favorite thing, in fact, the most hated.
What I'm doing is addressing things I have been ignoring for a while. Bad habits, a bad mother needing ever-changing care that hasn't been resolved, and looking in to taking care of myself. I put a lot of energy, probably misplaced, into taking overly-protective care of everything BUT myself. A pet, friends, and feeding worry. It's not a healthy spot.
BoB, while I love it and those in it, becomes almost a trivial distraction especially at this point. Hearing the same arguments, petty instances of pride and prodding that goes on, while not exclusive to the posts, was not really something I got involved with. I tried and try to get along with everyone with reasonable approach--to great success, I might add.
The problem was and is the daily upkeep, being "on stage" for folks, and I can't handle that kind of responsibility right now. I'm wasting energy engrossing myself here, rather than taking on things that really need to be attended to. Work, personal life, grief, and getting ahead. There is such a thing as too much of a good thing, and well...
...I'm not "quitting" the forum, but what I was doing before will be taking a long hiatus. I have a ton of people I love here, some of which I have methods of keeping in contact with so I do not go totally 'round the bend, and others who have supported me in my times of need. That means something. You all mean something. If I cannot be whole (or expected to be) here, there's not much point in pretending.
In summary, this is a GOOD place. Keep it that way, so, also be good to each other. Always. Reject the troublemakers, keep in line the childish, support those that put their effort into it and keep paying it forward. :heart: If necessary, get in touch with me.
Like last time, I'll be around when I can. There's your update, for all who through the woodwork have gotten messages to me wondering what was up. I'll be fine.
8)
For a quick update, the work I thought I had with my friend Eric doing computer stuff turned into my first "day" with him, he leaves, and gets in a motorcycle accident and was out for weeks with a concussion. He'll be fine, but I felt cursed.
Last Thursday my best friend, Hazumi my beloved chinchilla, died after a bad reaction with the anesthesia she was under for a routine tooth spur trim. I trust my vet when she says at 10 years old, with perhaps an unknown and undiagnosed issue, it's not entirely surprising, but we sure weren't expecting it. It was a wake-up call to my life and how I had been approaching many things.
Sure, I'm torn up, but I'm also feeling pretty good about what lies aghead. I'm not sure how. I'm not sure why. Change isn't my favorite thing, in fact, the most hated.
What I'm doing is addressing things I have been ignoring for a while. Bad habits, a bad mother needing ever-changing care that hasn't been resolved, and looking in to taking care of myself. I put a lot of energy, probably misplaced, into taking overly-protective care of everything BUT myself. A pet, friends, and feeding worry. It's not a healthy spot.
BoB, while I love it and those in it, becomes almost a trivial distraction especially at this point. Hearing the same arguments, petty instances of pride and prodding that goes on, while not exclusive to the posts, was not really something I got involved with. I tried and try to get along with everyone with reasonable approach--to great success, I might add.
The problem was and is the daily upkeep, being "on stage" for folks, and I can't handle that kind of responsibility right now. I'm wasting energy engrossing myself here, rather than taking on things that really need to be attended to. Work, personal life, grief, and getting ahead. There is such a thing as too much of a good thing, and well...
...I'm not "quitting" the forum, but what I was doing before will be taking a long hiatus. I have a ton of people I love here, some of which I have methods of keeping in contact with so I do not go totally 'round the bend, and others who have supported me in my times of need. That means something. You all mean something. If I cannot be whole (or expected to be) here, there's not much point in pretending.
In summary, this is a GOOD place. Keep it that way, so, also be good to each other. Always. Reject the troublemakers, keep in line the childish, support those that put their effort into it and keep paying it forward. :heart: If necessary, get in touch with me.
Like last time, I'll be around when I can. There's your update, for all who through the woodwork have gotten messages to me wondering what was up. I'll be fine.
8)
