Greyson
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Hey guys, I'm just experiencing something odd and I wanted to see if it was common or if I'm in the minority, there's a bit of background below that may bore you, apologies for beating around the bush.
As some of you know, I'm looking for a house. I've been looking for a house for about six months now since I lost my previous home of 25 years due to bad debt problems. Because my brother lied, cheated and stole from my family all his life, he was written out of the family will and no longer speaks to us, I haven't even heard from him in five years, and my sister moved to Australia about three years ago. Basically, I'm all that my mother and father has left to help them in their old age, and I've had no real choice apart from to try to live near my parents and help support them as they are struggling with various medical issues and cancer.
I have had three house deals fall through now, one where I decided to pull out of the purchase, and two where other factors negated the sale. Today was a bad day. I had finally found another place that was quiet enough for me, 5 miles from there to my parents in case of emergency, it had enough living space and was within my price range ect. However the brief results of the Homebuyers survey came back today, and there's a lot wrong with the house, an estimated £20,000 / $32,000 worth of problems that need to be fixed. I'm already beyond my budget and borrowing money from family just to buy the place, so I cant pay for repairs on top of the price, and the seller wont reduce the price. So it looks like I've lost another house, we are waiting until next week for the written form of the survey to come through because the sellers don't believe the findings are real.
Anyhow, that's the background. What I noticed today was... if I was a cigarette smoker, I'd probably have been smoking a lot. Being in the position of not having my own space, not having control over my life, feeling trapped and damned no matter what I do is taking a pretty heavy toll on me and keeps me under stress. But as a pipe smoker I sort of have the opposite reaction, I'm not drawn to it at all, in fact when I've thought about it today I've felt the same as when I thought about eating: faintly nauseous. (I cant eat when I'm stressed either). This reaction to thinking about smoking doesn't make sense, as I really enjoy pipe smoking. So I was wondering if others had the same reaction to stress with pipesmoking? I thought it might have been something to do with the fundamental differences between cigarette smoking and pipe smoking, like the cigarette basically being just a delivery mechanism for nicotine, and pipe smoking being more of a luxurious ritual of relaxation than just drug delivery. Or perhaps its because pipesmoking for me is very much about the taste and flavours, which might align with the physical / emotional experience of eating and therefore gets hit with the same hangup as when I get stressed and cant eat. I just thought it was an odd reaction, and I wondered if you guys felt anything similar under stress.
As some of you know, I'm looking for a house. I've been looking for a house for about six months now since I lost my previous home of 25 years due to bad debt problems. Because my brother lied, cheated and stole from my family all his life, he was written out of the family will and no longer speaks to us, I haven't even heard from him in five years, and my sister moved to Australia about three years ago. Basically, I'm all that my mother and father has left to help them in their old age, and I've had no real choice apart from to try to live near my parents and help support them as they are struggling with various medical issues and cancer.
I have had three house deals fall through now, one where I decided to pull out of the purchase, and two where other factors negated the sale. Today was a bad day. I had finally found another place that was quiet enough for me, 5 miles from there to my parents in case of emergency, it had enough living space and was within my price range ect. However the brief results of the Homebuyers survey came back today, and there's a lot wrong with the house, an estimated £20,000 / $32,000 worth of problems that need to be fixed. I'm already beyond my budget and borrowing money from family just to buy the place, so I cant pay for repairs on top of the price, and the seller wont reduce the price. So it looks like I've lost another house, we are waiting until next week for the written form of the survey to come through because the sellers don't believe the findings are real.
Anyhow, that's the background. What I noticed today was... if I was a cigarette smoker, I'd probably have been smoking a lot. Being in the position of not having my own space, not having control over my life, feeling trapped and damned no matter what I do is taking a pretty heavy toll on me and keeps me under stress. But as a pipe smoker I sort of have the opposite reaction, I'm not drawn to it at all, in fact when I've thought about it today I've felt the same as when I thought about eating: faintly nauseous. (I cant eat when I'm stressed either). This reaction to thinking about smoking doesn't make sense, as I really enjoy pipe smoking. So I was wondering if others had the same reaction to stress with pipesmoking? I thought it might have been something to do with the fundamental differences between cigarette smoking and pipe smoking, like the cigarette basically being just a delivery mechanism for nicotine, and pipe smoking being more of a luxurious ritual of relaxation than just drug delivery. Or perhaps its because pipesmoking for me is very much about the taste and flavours, which might align with the physical / emotional experience of eating and therefore gets hit with the same hangup as when I get stressed and cant eat. I just thought it was an odd reaction, and I wondered if you guys felt anything similar under stress.